Sinking again, huh? Maybe put that social welfare state healthcare of yours to work to help you? It's supposedly "great" or so European's say it is. Talk to a health provider if you're sinking to those lows. Hopefully they can provide meaningful help to you.
I got professional help, on meds.
But even with all that, without friends it won't help any, just keeps me from going too low. But even if I'm this low, I'd never off myself, but the thought has been there.
But I keep to myself, then people don't have to see it, just do my thing, stay in my corner and post stuff