I broke down today. Hah.
Might as well just come out and say that this has been going on since January. Not really break downs-- well, occasionally-- but the instability. I'll feel angry, annoyed, sad, depressed, for no real reason. I went to the doctors a month ago and was given medication for...anxiety, I guess. It keeps me from worrying too much, which is great, but that only takes care of that. I'll still feel these other emotions kinda strongly, and my thoughts are still...my thoughts(?). I don't want to go into detail about those.I'll be seeing someone May 4th. Hopefully I can get a proper reason as to what is actually wrong with me. The doctor suspects a certain mental illness, but isn't entirely sure. And what he suspects, honestly, makes a lick of sense, but I'm hoping it's not what he thinks and is instead just something else.A part of me wants to say it's bipolar disorder, but like... my moods switch way too frequently for that, I think? From my understanding from research along with first hand experience, bipolar is more long-term with moods and shit. So. Dunno.
Quote from: System423 on 2018-04-25 21:03:54Might as well just come out and say that this has been going on since January. Not really break downs-- well, occasionally-- but the instability. I'll feel angry, annoyed, sad, depressed, for no real reason. I went to the doctors a month ago and was given medication for...anxiety, I guess. It keeps me from worrying too much, which is great, but that only takes care of that. I'll still feel these other emotions kinda strongly, and my thoughts are still...my thoughts(?). I don't want to go into detail about those.I'll be seeing someone May 4th. Hopefully I can get a proper reason as to what is actually wrong with me. The doctor suspects a certain mental illness, but isn't entirely sure. And what he suspects, honestly, makes a lick of sense, but I'm hoping it's not what he thinks and is instead just something else.A part of me wants to say it's bipolar disorder, but like... my moods switch way too frequently for that, I think? From my understanding from research along with first hand experience, bipolar is more long-term with moods and shit. So. Dunno.Hmmm. I do hope the best outcome happens for you, Miggs. That stinks. I am no doctor but I remember a doctor telling a friend of mine once who was having anxiety issues that it was probably related to the media he surrounded himself with and took in. Like... I don't know... the material he watched and the people groups he hung around with, music, etc. Maybe that is an underlying cause? I'm not sure. I do wish the best for ya.
You'll be in my thoughts in prayers, Miggs. No fun going on there. I hope they can make a proper diagnosis and help you out or maybe you will stumble upon the root and help yourself out. I wish you only the best in this trying time.