But why rant in here if it has nothing to do with my art or what I posted? Not the place for it in my opinion, it brings down the intended mood
It's not a downer rant. It's a thought process your art produced, that is a good thing! Not everything is about your art, even in it's topic. You should see the random rants that happen in other art topics, but since you never comment or look at them, I guess you wouldn't know. Just enjoy the fact people are having fun and you are making them think beyond just art. 
I kinda stay in my bubble, still dealing with mental stuff, my mind is a bit more fragile and doesn't take much to send me going back to my corner where its *safe*
I do look at things, I just don't feel too confident to venture out too far yet. Just last year I had very dark thoughts, I'm still working on getting out of it.
I do my best but its rough